Homeward Bound

BEWARE OF ENERGY VAMPIRES One of the incidents I can recall was when i traveled to India on my pilgrimage with Sree Maa who was taking us on a Temple Tour to visit the Swaminarayan Temples in Gujrat. During the trip I made the grave mistake of entering a temple before mensuration had finished. There are strict rules around this in the Swaminarayan Sampraday and due to my ignorance I made this mistake of not following the correct protocols. This had certain energetic repercussions on Sree Maa Shri Ji which I will not go into detail about. My natural response was to feel extremely remorseful for my Agyan (ignorance). During the bus trip i sat next to Dallia and she was speaking to me, but rather than trying to console me she was blaming and reprimanding me for my error. She was the first to tell me how wrong I had been. At this time I did not know what her "real" face was like, i had only experienced her "false" face. Later that day she spent some time

Dear SadhGuru Here is my humble apology to Sree Maa Shri Ji for the lack of loyalty that I showed to my Sadhguru who so lovingly has lead me along the path of self awareness. Sree Maa Shri Ji i humbly apologise for the lack of awareness shown by me during my time in the FiT program. I allowed others including my self to take advantage of your love and trust in many ways.  My Sadguru gave me everything of themselves, only to be used and abused by individuals like me. Sree Maa Shri Ji are not from this place, and why would they want to be - when we treat others like this? I was so wrapped up in myself that I was unable to come to you and tell you what was happening for fear of being reprimanded, because I too took advantage of Sree Maa Shri Ji by thinking that I knew it all. i took it upon myself to print a brochure and disguised myself as a devotee when i had no clue about Bhaav.  Bhaav is only something that i am now able to feel in my heart for Sree Maa Shri Ji through

Behind The Mask Through the course of my time with Kosmic Fusion Sree Maa Shri Ji played many roles. In 2016 everyone was asked to reveal who they were and during this phase the need to be authentic and be in utmost integrity was very important so that we could all experience transformation at a higher level. One of the exercises that i did together with Sree Maa was called voice dialogue which helped to bring forward the disowned parts of the self or ego. Sree Maa lovingly supported me out of utmost Compassion to guide me through an exercise. During these exercises Sree Maa and i were in dialogue to assist me to transform the Narcissistic parts of the personality that were blocking the True Self from blossoming. It was always about Transformation and Awakening. For the Soul to take the front seat it was paramount that the ego self was explored and quietened. Sree Maa was able to help me to breakthrough the shades of Narcissism that i was hiding. I will forever be G

The founding principle of Kosmic Fusion was to be the non-doer, eventually i began to volunteer for events and expos and in 2014 Sree Maa Shri Ji stopped travelling to events and were energetically present at all events. Unfortunately due to some of the volunteers thinking that they were now "in charge" of the events, things began to unfold in a very toxic way. In the group there were several members with  narcissist traits, that's when the havoc began. As we know narcissists love to create chaos and havoc with their many tactics of flying monkeys, devaluing, blaming others, anger and retaliation. They literally suck energy from others around them and Enjoy causing pain confusion and distress to others. Little did i know that i was about to be the next target of a narcissist and began a long journey of being set up as another victim who was going to be used abused and discarded. Below is a really great article on the Cycle of Narccissm idealize-devalue-discard

Gaslighting by the Narc In this blog I would like to highlight one of the exercises done in the F.i.T. program.  This exercise was set as a Bonding exercise among the Sydney Team who were at the time having issues communicating. Some of the F.i.T.s came up with this activity to do at the retreat so that we could iron out any issues that existed within the team.  The exercise was emailed to us and outlined below: Jai Shree Swaminarayan _/\_ Dear Komal, Hanuman, Mala, Jwala and Simran In preparation for the upcoming reunion, there is a small exercise that we would like all Sydney Fits to participate in. Each one will write observations about the other 4. For example, Komal will write about what she has observed about Hanuman, Mala, Jwala and Simran. Similarly, everyone will write observations about the other 4. Remember, refrain from drawing judgements or giving opinions/feedback as then the small self is at play, but to really sit in Bhakti Bhaav and let the obs